damn it all to hell

Firefly was cancelled tonight again, but we're watching it tomorrow. It's probably cancelled for the best because at the moment I have tears streaming down my eyes and I'm so pissed off I could hit someone. This morning, before my dad was awake, I was having breakfast and my uncle goes bickering at me because he told our neighbours that they were invited to have dinner with us at graduation. I don't mind that I really don't and I'm gonna ask them I've just not had the time to do so and he goes complaining that I'd not asked them yet and i told him

"I know I have to ask them."
"Yeah you know but you're not doing it."

"I'm going to, it's 2,5 weeks left. no need to hurry."

First of all, why the hell does HE invite people to MY graduation. He's got no right. I was planning on asking them long before he mentioned but my point is, he shouldn't get mixed up in it. And to make it worse, were were having dinner ten minutes ago and he said that Folke had asked what the plans are for grad day and he started bickering and going, you have to start planning it, why haven't you started yet and then he went

"Maybe you've decided to leave it all to mum and dad."

and I didn't reply to that, my uncle asked if I was looking forward to Grad, if it was going to be a good day and I said that "yeah it will be" and he replied "you don't need to look so fucking upset." I don't curse at him. I never do. I try to be as respectful as possible and my aunt was there when he said it and she said nothing to him. I'm just so fed up.

I've been incredibly stressed, I've only just finished my schoolwork I've got like one thing left to do and I haven't had time to think of graduation I don't get why people cannot understand that. Tomorrow, if watching firefly doesn't get cancelled again, will be the first day in a long bloody while for me to relax without feeling guilty about not having some leftover work to do. Just hope I won't have a break down or something that would be incredibly embarrasing. Mind you, I'm doing all the crying now.